Looking Back at Last Year

It's funny to think back on my Sophomore year. I was an excited newbie in the RA world with goals of helping freshman adjust to life at school just as Asmeret had done for me. She was a role model in my life and I hoped to be that to others.

Long story short, being an RA was the path I was to take and instead, I lived a year's worth of stress, depression, and unhappiness. Never in my life had I felt so disappointed in myself and the way I treated others. Never in my life had I felt so unsatisfied with my life. For days, I would stay secluded in my room and ignore every problem that was thrust into my life. As if school and work weren't enough, the relationships I had with my closest friends were barely hanging on a string. It was too much. I worried myself sick about things that did not matter. My priorities were not in order.

At the end of the year, I was not only relieved but thankful that I was done with everything I tried so hard to maintain. And now, as I look back outside of the glass, I realize that the job was not cut for me. My heart wasn't in it and I wasn't serious about it. Though some people are, it just wasn't me. I am in a happier place now, in a home far enough away from campus where I can relax and take time off to think. Though many of my friends are still RAs, hearing them complain about how they didn't go to bed til 6am makes me absolutely thrilled that I don't have to deal with it anymore.

I told myself this year that I would work hard and assist people in my own way. I have many things in store that I am extremely excited about and I hope that I can share them with everyone. I am much more stable mentally and I feel that this is going to be an amazing year for me.

Many things have changed and my closest friends are gone exploring new places in the world. I know that it is best for us. I have faith that each and everyone one of us will learn just as much as we did last year with many trials and errors (which Alysha and I have already made lol). I just can't wait to hear the stories.

- Bree

PS- I am soooooooo tired. I just really want to sleep.