Sometimes things just don't go your way

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This song is called Two Weeks by Grizzly Bear. It has been played approximately 56 times on my iTunes and I have only had it for about...two weeks. Haha. Ironic! Anyway, it's amazing and I absolutely love Edward Droste's sleepy voice. If you don't know Grizzly Bear. Get to know them very well starting...now.



I was going to write a poem, but it didn't work out that way. I suppose that's life I guess. I never write when I feel like it, I write when it comes to me. In this sense, I don't have much of a choice. Most of my poetry isn't even inspired by anything. In fact, most of it has nothing to do with my personal experiences. It may seem like it sometimes, but I'll write something, from staring blankly at a wall or something and drifting off into my day dreams. It isn't until I finish that I'll think about it and say wow, that kind of relates to me in the weirdest way.

I think that's when I perform the best. When I am totally not thinking about writing anything at all. My inspiration forms out of...nothing, absolutely nothing. Though I will say that at times it does, especially last year when I was very home sick, I'd write about missing my family or missing certain people I am not contact with anymore, but even then, I felt like that wasn't my best. I was writing to just ease the pain and that was bittersweet.

So the desire to write a poem failed and now I am just talking about how I usually go about writing a poem. I guess I'm just bored and wanted to write something anyway.

My brother came over today and we baked cookies for my mama. Mainly he baked and I was his assistant. I can say now that the cookies ended up much better than what I had planned them to be and mother keeps snacking on them every time she walks into the kitchen. Mission Accomplished. Now I am listening to NOVELS on repeat :D while my brother is sleep on my new futon (jerk). My sister and mom are watching some show on Oxygen and I am stuck in the kitchen writing about nothing.

I was supposed to go Ice Skating with my friends, but I just really wanted to stay in and spend time with my family. It's so funny because I was stuck here all day yesterday and I wanted to leave more than anything. I felt really bad that I said I wasn't coming but at the same time, I don't think I would have enjoyed myself as much if I went to make others happy. Sometimes, I just don't feel like being around my friends. That came out really mean but it's just an honest statement that I think everyone feels every once in a while. I think it's healthy and I think it makes relationships stronger. Today was just about my family. It is very rare that we spend time all together nowadays and I just really wanted to do something nice for my mom. She loves cookies more than any other snack. In fact, she just came in here right now to get another cookie and I didn't even notice until she left. That sneaky little lady. My mom has such a child-like mentality. That's what I love the most about her.

I'll probably go to the movies by myself tomorrow. I know it's weird, but I enjoy going to the movies alone. I don't have to please anyone and I am just relaxed by myself. I haven't done that in a while. I could get my nails done too but it all depends on how the day turns out. If there's a true way to make you happy, treat yourself to some quality one on one time with you. We're surrounded by people everyday, people we feel like we have to please but we never get to please ourselves. So I say get a break every so often. Trust me, you'll love it.

If you've read this far, I am so sorry. I went off on several tangents and have definitely wasted your time. Hope you liked the song though! Go ahead and treat yourself by give it another listen! Hope you had a Happy Sunday!