A Stubborn Mind

Me, my brother, and sister. Oh my have we grown!

It's my first post of 2010! I've decided to write my personal thoughts on the new year.

I'll be 20 in 6 months and I am finding that very strange. I feel that my childhood was like yesterday, perhaps because I still act like a child? I'm not sure but I remember key events vividly, like the day that I began middle school thinking that switching classrooms was the coolest thing since pizza bagel bites. Or the fact that I ended up hating middle school after a week because I was a late bloomer with a rolling bag while everyone else had C cup boobs and cereal boxes for backpacks.

Needless to say, that was the past and the years after spring of 2004 were ones that I will never take back. Most people hated high school, I did in a sense, but my fondest and most memorable moments outnumber the bad ones and I choose to be happy about my lifelong friends and getting closer to my family.

As I am contemplating right now, and I am thinking of how much I've changed. I am stumped though because I don't think I've changed that much. I am still the nerdy baby who loves cartoons and writing poetry in the margins of notebooks. I think I have become less of a baby if that's hard to believe, though sometimes I really have to catch myself when I get annoying.

So, here is my list of apologies in 2009:

-Sorry for my baby-like behavior that puts me in sour moods. *To make this better, just be sincere and tell me that you love me with a great hug attached.

-Being a jerk to Alysha. I always go home and think about the things that I say and I shouldn't be so mean to you because you are always there to listen.

- Clogging people's toilets. :(

- Staying in my room all last semester and not socializing.

- Also being a jerk to my sister when she doesn't deserve it.

- Not visiting Ava baby enough.

- Relying on people to do things for me when I can do them or learn to do them myself.

-Pinching Jay Paul when I promised him I wouldn't.

- Not visiting my Berkeley buddies enough and not inviting my other friends to see if they'd like to come with me.

This 2010, I don't want any resolutions to change myself because that's never set in stone and it comes naturally. Instead, I am just going to be spontaneous and do what I want for once. This is not a goal, but a promise to myself. Here is a little sneak preview of what I am going to do this year! :D

1. Visit one of my friends who lives in another state. I haven't decided yet on which one I'm going to see but I'll get back to you.

2. Start on my DIY book of poetry! My goal is to leave them in bookstores, libraries, shoeboxes, etc. and just give it away for free with the hopes that it will inspire many!

3. Volunteer! Volunteer! VOLUNTEER! It puts me in the best mood. Helping others is what I was meant to do in life! It brings me so much joy and it's a passion of mine that I never get bored of!